My Body Betrayed Me

Wow. The origin of the render farm. Watching these backwards (because they are listed newest to oldest) I have been wondering how long this would be.

_"From the moment I understood the weakness of my flesh, it disgusted me. I craved the strength and certainty of steel. I aspired to the purity of the blessed machine. Your kind cling to your flesh as if it will not decay and fail you. One day the crude biomass you call a temple will wither and you will beg my kind to save you._ _But I am already saved, for the Machine is Immortal."_ - Magos Markus Plius

I'm on medication for "mood regulation." I'm bi-polar, and when I was first put on this med, it felt like someone put a blanket over all my emotions. I have a couple of passions in life, and the med prevented the HIGHS those passions brought me. So I completely understand what Bob is talking about.

Bob talking about not finding a genuine interest in something and just hyper fixating on it, MAN I feel so seen. I’ve had this issue for so long and I just wish I could find something that genuinely interests me and I don’t hyper fixate on it and once my hyperfixation is done I just don’t touch it for a longggg time :,) I feel so seen lol

Doubt anyone will see this but if you do, be careful taking too much of any one vitamin. My dad ended up getting pretty serious neuropathy from accidently taking too much vitamin B6.

You know, I never thought of it, but being able to see when you wake up must be nice.

I'm right there with you bob. I cannot find a true passion in anything

12:50 in my experience as a woman, the speculum itself isn't so bad. But the whole process of exams can be fairly barbaric. I haven't had this specific procedure done, but to get a cervical biopsy, they only give local anesthetics. Which are very ineffective for a lot of people. And I just feel like we should have better care for gynecology patients in general.

I really relate to the guys’ talk about not being able to passionately obsess over just one thing — I keep getting videos recommended to me about people who excel doing one hobby and completely mastering it over the courses of their lives, and every now and then I’ll just be sad to hear about it… I love being able to have so many different passions ofc, and it’s led to me meeting so many different types of people, but god sometimes I wish I could obsess over drawing for more than a month so I could make substantial progress. I wish I could start that small business I’ve always wanted to start. I wish I could use up all of my yarn making clothes and such instead of having it sit there for months, waiting for me to come back to it. I wish I could finish that novel I’ve been writing for the past two years. I don’t have diagnosed ADHD but I’m 99% sure I have it since a lot of the symptoms apply to me, and I wish I could find some solution for this

46:49 The mysterious fourth member, Chica, gets 3 points!